Things people don't tell you when you get married:

I'm sure there are a lot of things (and my friend Melanie is going to write a book about them). But one of those things is that it is not always easy to have a baby. I grew up thinking that if a girl wasn't on birth control you would get pregnant the first time you ever had sex. Now, I'm sure for some people that is true. For me, its not. It's been about 10 months since the last time Josh and I were pregnant. The first 2 times it happened relatively quickly - this time, not so much. Most days I am ok with that, but some days, like today, it's more difficult.

Another hard thing is how do you talk to friends about things that are "real life problems". I had a lot of friends growing up and could talk to them about a lot of things. Even though there were a lot of things that were a big deal and fairly serious, it usually wasn't hard to talk about with friends. I'm finding this to be different. How do you bring up "so, I've lost 2 babies and can't get pregnant again" to friends - even friends who have been there?

I really am not wanting this to be incredibly depressing so I apologize if it is. Really, it is just venting. I have read some other blogs by people who are struggling with miscarriage and/or infertility. Unfortunately, I am not nearly as eloquent in writing about walking those paths. I wish I was able to write more about that part of my life but there are few things that hold me back: the fear of alienating myself from others, not having any idea of what to say, not wanting to dwell on the past etc. So, what I do instead is sporadically write things on my blog when the inspiration strikes.

So, on that note, thank you for listening. There really are a lot of things that people don't tell you before you get married.