Ok, here goes nothing....
My headaches have been getting worse. I don't remember them being this bad, this consistently in years. So that's been hard. My neurologist can't see me until the end of November - we have been emailing and she has increased my medication but it doesn't seem to be helping much so far. It's been 13 years that I've had these stupid headaches and emotionally I'm doing ok with that right now, I am just frustrated with the limitations that they are placing on me.
I am still looking for a job. There aren't a ton of options right now and the things that are out there are either a really long commute or the job isn't a good fit. I just got a call for an interview on Thursday that I'm excited about though. I have enjoyed being home with Addie more and I think it will be hard to go back to work but I don't have much of a choice. I also miss work, I miss the challenge and using my skills. I am proud of myself for not stressing out about the lack of income more than I have. That's big for me.
Along with all my job search stuff, Josh and I have been hearing voices - not in a schizophrenic kind of way, but in a "God what are you saying" kind of way. We've thought that God was distinctly calling us in one direction and then we've had those doors slammed closed. We had a hard time adjusting to that and are trying so hard to discern what God is teaching us and guiding us to now. Since hearing a "no" or "not now" we have seen other doors open. I don't know if Josh and I have experienced trying to desperately hear God's voice and find the path He is leading us towards in quite this way before. It has brought us closer, taught us things and helped us re-evaluate our goals etc.
I believe that no matter what happens God is in control. I am excited to see what will happen from here and what doors will open. I am trying to spend more time in prayer lately to listen as well as talk. It's amazing how refreshing that is!
Now for the obligatory updates on my sweet daughter - she is talking more and more and I love it! She still seems so tiny and petite to me compared to other kids and is just now at 20 lbs. Yesterday she actually got her first black eye and fat lip from two separate falls within about an hour of each other. Thankfully, she's a tough girl! I am in awe daily of how much I love her and how much she is growing. Her personality is coming out more and more - she loves to joke around and tickle us, she loves to snuggle, she is so easy going most of the time.
So that's our life lately. Lots of uncertainty, lots of ups and downs but Josh frequently reminds me that we are on the same team and sticking together. I really do have the greatest husband ever, by the way.
Enjoy the pictures!
